Saturday, November 8, 2014

Feeling 23

Twenty-three years old. To me it's such an awkward number, and even more so, an awkward age.

In college, all I thought about was what it would be like to finally be out in the world doing something worthwhile. The possibilities seemed infinite, and the dream within reach.

The reality of it, however, seems constrained. When I start thinking about finances, medical bills, and my employability in the workforce, I stop for a moment and think, wow, is this what being an adult is about?

23 is a weird time for me. Too young to have really lived, but old enough to feel like you've been through some things. Like trying to figure out what you want to do, what you want to be, and what you want out of life, and realizing that there are no concrete answers to those questions. They change all the time, because we are changing. It's a strange limbo of becoming different versions of ourselves, yet still the same at the core.

Of course there are many things to be happy about. Friends. Family. Living and loving life, because face it, life is pretty good compared to other places.

So why is it that despite all the good things we already have, we still want more? And when will 'more' ever be enough?

6 comments:

  1. Turbulent 20s. :)
    I think 23 was around the time the excitement of "being grown" and doing adult stuff like not going school and paying bills started to wear off. I was actually excited the first time I wrote a check for a bill and mailed it in. Lol! I do everything online now, but even the excitement of that is starting to wear off.

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    1. Lol. You were excited to pay bills? I don't think I have ever experienced that!

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  2. Oh those young years! ;)
    Life was at a huge changing point during that time. So much was happening, I remember it more as living in an uncertain cloud - I felt that way at the time too. Funny enough, the questions you asked still remain at 40+, but the world seems clearer. I don't think we ever really get settled in.

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    1. Living in an uncertain cloud. I think you've nailed my feelings perfectly.

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  3. I'm 24 and I feel both certain of goals and at time lost with what life throws at me. I want to live like a child and shy away from responsibilities AND take control of my life. Bleghhh. We shall see what happens!

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    1. Yes. We shall. Life is one heck of a ride!

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