Pardon my hiatus from my blog. I was in warm, sunny, California, with my beautiful family. This year I only visited home twice. It is so hard being away that everytime I come home I am acutely aware of time. How much time has passed. How much time I have left with them. How much time until we are reunited.
I fear growing older, not because I don't want to be old, but because it means those around me are aging just as quickly. Time is enemy. Everytime I see my mother, she looks a little bit older, which makes me wonder how much time there is left to spend with her. What if, heaven forbid, something happened to my one of my sisters? Time with them would be snatched away in a blink of an eye.
My heart races just thinking about time, because it also relates to my writing. Work and life has kept me busy that I have fallen behind in my writing endeavors. Sometimes I find myself stopping and thinking, has two months has passed already? I could have been finished with a draft of a manuscript if I had only dedicated myself to it. Oh gosh, I need more time.
The urgency of time is always an undercurrent of my thoughts and cause of anxiety. How do you handle the race against time?
The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. Visit others in the group at Alex J. Cavanaugh's site and connect with your fellow writers!
Big thanks to the December 3rd co-hosts: Heather Gardner, T. Drecker from Kidbits, Eva E. Solar at Lilicasplace, and Patsy Collins!
Time is one of those things we don't have any control over. We just have to make the best of the present. I'm so glad you got to spend time with your family.
ReplyDeleteYou'll get back to your writing too.
Heather
Thank you Heather! Your words are definitely needed and encouraging!
DeleteFamily time! ^_^
ReplyDeleteI used to feel like this a lot. I actually still feel like this when I'm not actively pursuing my goals. There really is enough time for all the important things. We just need to give up something less important to get it.
So true Krystal. I guess I'm still trying to figure out what are the less important things.
DeleteI feel like this, too, like I should be further along in my endeavors, that I don't have time to wait for something to click for me in the writing because I havetodoitnow. Really, I'm just being impatient in some ways. Hope you had fun in Cali!
ReplyDeleteI can relate. I am the most impatient person I know!
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